Although we have met for the first time, there has been an acute chemistry between us. Maybe because we have been talking for hours. Yes, on usual topics- studies, career and of course humour. I can tell she was into me everytime i talked. I was making her laugh as swell. There is a difference between us. I am a naive guy but she is a beautiful girl with a sense. She is contended and full of thoughts. She is an ideal love material. The way she talks with me is just like my good lady would talk to me. I can only say for now- she is a girl that i have wanted for my life. She is drinking in joy and doesn't seem drunk. I am just hoping that she would lay on my arms and make me love her for the rest of the night. I want to sleep with her. I want to feel her untouched skin and share with her my intimate hours. I want to share with her the pleasure thats worth cherishig.I want to be her man for the night and feel her in every possible way...
The sound of birds chirping, the vehicles and the horns, the morning glow, I slowly open my eyes to find myself sleeping alone. As I verify everything, i am hit by the event last night.
So I tried to remember the day.
The jumps and laughter, carefree time.
The songs that we sang I remember. The dance we danced, the passerbys passing a judge- gaze, I remember.
From the previous records, I am proven to be a walking and talking mess. So the same thought has been occupying my mind now- the mess I created and a hopelessness beyond repair.
It is only 5:00 in the morning and I have no guts to walk to her to hear my mess last night. I am nervous. I decide not to wake other friends up to hear about the night .
I get off from the bed to pee I can clearly feel that I am still tipsy.Fuck I am good at ruining relationships because of my unhealthy drinking habits and messing things around !
Tired guessing and thinking, I lit a cigarette and decided to prepare for the day. And about her, she was not alongside me when i woke up. I looked for her around but she is gone.And now i feel that the worst part of yesterday was me waking up alone this morning. And do you know what the best part is? Me remembering nothing at all!!!
